Hi. I feel good after I’ve talk with my nephew about what I have been thinking and what I feel in that kind of situation. Seriously, I don’t know what he will think about me. But I am curious too. Any of my readers have a suggestion about this kind of situation and how to face it. Lol. I’m a tough person on outside, but inside, I am too weak. Haha

I’m too tired to write much, but I’ll write more in the next post. Hehe. Good night guys.

Xo.


heartbreaking

Hi. I’m back after a few months. Haha. Kind of busy with my new life and all things that I have to do. Well, I’m back with a new hope after I’ve been controlling myself and keep telling myself that I have to move on to the another step. Well you know, just like having a bad experience that makes my past life feel terrible. It’s already one year and half I think. I’ve been thinking of those shits. And now, I’m going to start a new life with a new spirit and joy. Let all your enemies jealous at you, that what I’ve told myself.

These two days, I’ve keep thinking of someone. That someone I’ve been close before, and now we’re behaving like, me and you were a stranger. When we saw each other, we’re keep feeling that we were never being friend before. But after that, I just realize that…………………………………….why am I being like this. It has been so many time.

He’s the one I know the most and we have been sharing our story of life together once. In 2006/2007 I think. He’s the one who keep myself beside him and protect me like his baby sister. His entire friend knows me well. Because I’m always with him when he met his friends. And after 2008/2009 both of us didn’t make a contact. Everything. Phone calls, messaging, we’re not even having whats app or Facebook yet. Wait, I do have a Facebook, but he didn’t have it. LOST.

I do met him at his Eid Al-Fitr open house every year, but just like I said, we’re STRANGERS. He does talk with my sister and my BIL. I was there though. *cries*

We didn’t have a relationship like other couples, but we’re friends that both of us can go with the flow. No matter what happened, we’re stick together. That was 8/9 years ago. Yes, I do miss to talk with him. But I just can’t. These two days I came back from class in the evening, I’ve been waiting to see him. But nothing.

*I type this entries with a tears on my face*

I left all this thing to Allah, and keep du’a to Allah, I’ll ask to Allah, send my regards and my love to him. May Allah grant us to Jannah and may Allah give me some strength to keep on living.

I thank you Allah.

I just miss him.

I need to talk with him.

Just a “Hi” to him.

*tears*

Xo.

I have died everyday waiting for you

Darling don’t be afraid

I have loved you

For a thousand years

I’ll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed

I would find you

Time has brought your heart to me

I have loved you

For a thousand years

I’ll love you for a thousand more